So yes, 20 weeks. I am actually 21 weeks in this picture, because it is impossible for me to take a picture during the week I am supposed to, apparently. As I write this, I am almost 22 weeks. Y'all, I am having a hard time keeping it together, lately. The good news is that the baby is doing great. I had a very easy 20 week nurse visit. It was less than 10 minutes long. Good vitals for me. Good vitals for baby. I gained one pound (which is not good for my mental state- I've been gaining fine, but to my psyche that lack of weight gain was like a green light for "bring on the pie!" which can't be good). I digress. No health questions. No issues. The visit was boring and I like it. The baby is moving around a lot these days and it's to the point where Michael can feel it externally.
The bad news is that since then, I feel pregnant. This weekend, I threw my back out carrying a 36 pound JM to time out and also managed to get dehydrated enough to start some scary Braxton Hicks contractions. The contractions combined with the back pain freaked me out enough to call the Nurseline at my OB (goodbye, boring!) and they told me to drink more water and take it easy. Ha ha! Do you know how many times a day I have to pick up my 25 pound Noah? Take it easy? Noah is still at that phase where he needs to be carried in a parking lot. Not to mention that he has a tooth or 5 coming in, has been sick and wants to be held all day long these past few days. Does take it easy include making a box of macaroni and cheese with a baby on your hip?
The BH contractions scared me enough to try to take heed of the nurse's advice to slow down. How hard is it to slow down at this time of year? I don't know about you, but I have a gazillion things on my "To-Do" list. And, I don't know if you moms work or stay home, or have help beyond your husbands, but for me, if I want to go to the grocery store or Target or the mall, I usually have to bring my kids, which even though they are pretty well-behaved as toddlers can be, totally wears me out.
As I write this, I'm already feeling overwhelmed about Christmas and specifically about making Christmas meaningful for my boys, my upcoming kitchen remodel in January (we signed the papers last week- yay!) and life, in general. Today I tried to cram in a Target run and a Nordstrom Rack run with the boys in the morning, two loads of laundry, then after nap a trip to the library and then HEB, as we didn't have any food from Thanksgiving traveling.
How to slow down? We need food. We need toilet paper. We need/want to buy gifts for the Angel Tree at church and darn Target didn't have size 5.5 shoes, so I had to go to another store to see if I could get them... Our books were overdue at the library (typical) and on and on. I guess it's a matter of constantly evaluating what's important. What's really important to me is my family and showing the boys what Christmas is really all about. This is where God comes in. I need to slow and to focus. God, first. Me, next. Michael, next. The boys, next. All the other stuff, next. God, help me to do this this Advent! I really want to make Christmas cookies and send Christmas cards, but that stuff may have to hit the back burner. I may not make it to the gym like I want to, but I'm giving myself permission for that to be okay. The "most wonderful time of the year" is supposed to be about you, Lord and not about me putting pressure on myself for things to all be done. If I have a crib mattress in my entryway for a week or let my kids watch 10 more minutes of TV than they usually do to save my sanity, so be it! Help me to slow down!









